It is truly a beautiful thing, how much a small amount of time can make such big changes. Its been almost a month since i’ve said goodbye to my first love, and while i think about them everyday, I know deep down that it is the best decision I can make at this point in time. 

I have other things to keep my mind occupied, its finals week and I have to put the final touches into my first major research proposal.

While I still miss the green light, I know one day it wont shine as bright, and I’ll have other lights to look forward to. For a second this semester, I thought I had found the next light, twice, but no. Again, its ok, because those almost lights served a very important meaning all their own. One helped me see that, after many many years of wondering, it never would have worked. The other… well that one is still confusing, but i think he was sent to me by the universe so I could better understand that my pattern in guys has been harmful to myself emotionally. The latter is a very complex situation, but I’m beginning to smooth it out within myself.

Time: 4:30pm

Goal 1: Get four pages of six page paper completed by 5:40pm

Goal 2: Have complete 6 pages and works cited complete by 1am

here we go…